Friday, August 18, 2006

Payback!?!

Well as you can all understand...I am hurting!
really bad!

Anyhow, I just heard this song by coldplay. Here are the lyrics :

Fix You
"When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

When the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
High up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
If you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I...

Tears stream down on your face
I promise you I will learn from the mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I...
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Thursday, August 17, 2006

Hanging by a moment

People have songs close to their hearts. I am a person who has songs that he can relate to.
Take this one for example.
Yes it does sound like a boyband song...and no, I aint gay! If you have read through the initial posts on my blog till now, you would know that I aint. I am FLAMING STRAIGHT! :D

Anyhow, this is a song that I really love a lot and that coincides with my current scenario of life. here it goes. it was originally performed by Life House. Great vocals and great music. Try listening to it, if you havent already.


Hanging by a Moment

Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
I’m closer to where I started
I’m chasing after you

I’m falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I’ve held on to
I’m standing here until you make me move
I’m hanging by a moment here with you

Forgetting all I’m lacking
Completely incomplete
I’ll take your invitation
You take all of me now

I’m falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I’ve held on to
I’m standing here until you make me move
I’m hanging by a moment here with you

I’m living for the only thing
I knowI’m running
and not quite sure where to go
And I don’t know what I’m tapping into

Just hanging by a moment here with you

There’s nothing else to lose
There’s nothing else to find
There’s nothing in the world
That can change my mind

There is nothing else
There is nothing else
There is nothing else

Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
I’m closer to where I started
I’m chasing after you
I’m falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I’ve held on to
I’m standing here until you make me move
I’m hanging by a moment here with you
I’m living for the only thing I know
I’m running and not quite sure where to go
And I don’t know what I’m diving into

Just hanging by a moment here with you
Just hanging by a moment
Hanging by a moment
Hanging by a moment
Hanging by a moment here with you


Well there you go. Yeah, it sounds like I am extremely desperate and stuff. But hey, that's me.
take care, y'all.
cheerios. ALLAH Hafez

Breaking apart!

you know there are times, when you see everything around you changing before your very eyes. You cant do a thing about it...and so it hurts! It hurts like a thousand needles moving through your blood veins and clotting up all that you thought were your emotions.

You lose sense of reality, of time, of everything around you.

But somehow, you still want to hold on. You want to live life..as It comes even then. But no matter how much you try... it never works. Isn't it weird?

Its a wonder how I tend to get up from every single war and battle that I lose and somehow, fight my battles again.

Do you know how it feels when you have your sorrows, pain and everything else, put up on one sid of a balance and have it compared against someone's who does not even come close to what you have been through, by one of your loved ones.

Yes the loved one...you somehow still love that person. But it hurts! Deep inside it does.

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

To the freebird

Freedom is everything to human beings. But freedom to do the worst and testing the limits is not freedom but self-destruction.

I acted and messaged a very harsh message. There were two reasons behind it. I wanted to have some time on my own and clear my head out.
Secondly, I am acting on the thing that you have wanted. You wanted a chance at being able to take decisions. No matter how harmful they are, you want to decide.
I am letting you have that space as you have already expressed your disinterest about how my open-minded and loving care toward you simply suffocates you.

I am not in anyway escaping from anything. I just want you to live normally and happily.
And know what, I am hurting for not being able to talk to you, hear your voice and all.
But I want you to decide on your own and be confident about yourself. I don't want to feed you your decisions. I made that mistake today and that infuriated you to no means.
I am sorry for that. I will never do that to anybody ever again.

But have fun. I just pray that you realize what you are doing and you do make the correct decisions no matter how bad they are for me. I dont really care about myself. I don't think I ever did when it came to YOU.

I just want to see you happy.
take care.

PS if you feel bad and feel like talking, do call.